Sometimes I find myself asking why a lot. Why do people who don’t want children get pregnant while taking birth control? Why do people who keep getting abortions keep being allowed by god to get pregnant? Why do some people get 5 kids and others get none? Why do some people understand my pain and others act like getting pregnant is like riding a bike? That’s the hardest one for me. The people who never struggled and always got pregnant on the first try or got pregnant without evening trying will ask me when am I going to have a kid? Why don’t we have kids yet? What are you waiting for? Basically I’m waiting for God to allow it…. Sometimes I feel the need to scream at them and tell them ask God you inconsiderate you know what! Or sometimes I just wanna burst into tears, other times On the rare occasion I will be calm and honest. I feel like it’s so personal though. I don’t care to let some people know. 1 because they won’t understand 2 I’m a rather private person. I have asked others in the past these questions so I try to have compassion because most people don’t mean anything harmful by it but I’ve learned not to ask because I know how bad it stings sometimes. How it breaks you into pieces and makes you feel like something is wrong with you or that you aren’t good enough. Sometimes it’s a daily struggle.