For about a year now I put myself last . Not because anyone asked me to but because I felt unworthy. A dweller of self pity. I’ve let myself go mentally emotionally physically and spiritually. Seriously in all the ways. First I started back spiritually communing more with Jesus then my mind started benefiting from the peace that only he can give. I have dug deep into my emotions, past traumas and things that I needed to get out or forgive myself and others for. In turn that helped balance my emotions there’s still a lot of work to be done in that area. I’m a storer I store my emotions in until there’s no more room and they explode everywhere. Baby steps to decluttering them and reminding myself we are all human and we ALL have emotions. Two days ago I started tracking my macros and breaking a sweat hoping to get back down to a healthier weight. My whole life I’ve always been too big even when I wasn’t I don’t think I have ever been good enough for myself. This year I want to see myself through the eyes of my savior. I want to make a big effort to see what he sees to be what he sees and align my desires to his will. I need his strength and I will keep leaning in and I will not give up on myself again because he has never given up on me